It feels good to be united… it feels good to fight a battle alone. This girl is allowed a day of reprieve. Self-loathing cowers in a corner, Self-Preservation is knocking at my door….
It’s been some time since I’ve felt this strong. Mom Dynamic, Dani Dynamic and Lola are one today. No need for this girl to mediate, their personalities blend perfectly.
It’s ironic how the mother finds me a hinderance. Yet there’s no obstacle I can’t overcome, in regard to the Sweet and the Great…
Fear is a distant memory at the moment. I still have fight left in me. My children give me the will to move forward…. to defy gravity…. to be me….
Recently, a twitter friend of this girls, sent us link to a song, he felt appropriate for us…. It was perfect… made Dani Dynamic cry…. this blog is dedicated, to this girls twitter friend, and now one of Dani’s favorites as well… thanks @highjeep (slim pickens) this blogs for you…*giggling* he’s not a bud guy…more like Yuengling….
We jump all over the place with our entries…this girl is new to the blogging “scene”… we aren’t sure what a sticky post is yet, or how the hell to even incorporate it into our blog, if we did know… but that’s another story…”sticky posts, aren’t they colorful littles pads to write on…… with a glue like substance on one end?” says mom Dynamic…
During this oh so fun, stroll down Memory Hell Lane, we’ve discovered much about ourselves… almost always painful shit surfaces. Nevertheless an occasional, rare glimpse of happiness, will appear out of no where. That’s what happened the day highjeep, dedicated a song to us.
What he failed to realize, was that he sparked for us a happy…what’s a happy? Come on, get your minds out of the gutter….not everything “Happy” is centered around sex… although many things in life are. A happy for us, is something that triggers an emotion, vision, memory, or dream that made us smile. In this case it was a happy for Dani….
If you’re new to the blog… I’m fucked up…and there are many here with me…. this girl is my protector. She is also my liaison for mom Dynamic, Dani Dynamic and Lola. Guarding me is this girls responsibility. This involves kicking the shit out of self-loathing when he decides, to come a knockin… which happens often. Anyway…that too, is another story…back to the “real” entry… oh…and we know that using the strikethrough, as we did, isn’t actually correct…but there were soooo many ways we saw it used…. we decided since we hatethe unmentionable one...enough to say that horrible word…we could use strikethrough however the hell we’d like….”thank you very much!”…. now….back to the originally scheduled program…..
Dani Dynamic is this girls favorite…. she’s a happy blend of both mom dynamic and Lola but also her own individual. Problem is, self-loathing kicks her a lot… and cuts her… and beats her… he’s a mean bastard I tell ya! We obviously HATE him and as mom Dynamic likes to say to the Sweet and the Great “we don’t say hate, we say, very much dislike“. If you follow us on twitter… you will rarely see us use the word HATE… it’s an ugly word we prefer to save for extreme issues… back to Dani… oh and we have Attention Deficit Disorder as well to add to our “crazy” list of’s … so…. Dani, by far is the most exceptional one…
We recently quizzed our AMAZING hubby, in twitterland known as @enragedbanana or Daddy Dynamic.. but we usually just refer to him, as the husband…. who we adore! O.K. so the question we posed to him was this:
“When you think of us as one, (which he does…..even though, we know, he knows the truth) what characteristics, does that girl embody?” his reply was “she’s beautiful” well…jeez…. we’d hoped for a little more details, so… we further encouraged him to use better adjectives to describe OUR beauty *swooning* (we, oh so, love him!) He then began using words like FUN, HAPPY, DRIVEN, CARING, show stopping smile (actually he said “beautiful smile”, but we changed that a little…hehehe!) He went on to say ” you’re sexy, but not overtly…” we *roll* our eyes saying ” o.k., so she’s classy sexy… ohhhlala…you may continue” at this point he’s pouting, because we keep interrupting.. “you’re a Natural Beauty, like the girl next door…that you want to sleep with” (we punched him… he laughed… he’s more than twice our size… we don’t weigh very much…) we *clear throat…* “so what else do you like about that girl?” he pondered a moment, then… out of his mouth came the words ” She’s an Attentive Wife, Fantastic Mother, Fabulous Cook, also enjoys.. cleaning, taking out trash, washing/drying/folding/putting away clothes, cleaning cat litter, oh and she looooves giving me BLOW JOBS!” now we’re like “whatever…who’s crazy now buddy…no girl is that amazing!” “You may continue...” his voice lowered, he grabbed our hand..”o.k., o.k., you ARE an amazing cook, you DO put the kids before yourself honey, you’re fairly patient…. *pauses* or at least you were…” *insert* us saying “fuck you asshole” *retracting hand* from his he says “you’re very attentive… when you aren’t feeling bad…which by the way…hasn’t been lately“OUCH! that second punch was a low blow and it hurt..bad….but he’s right….
Then we asked him what he liked this girl to wear…he listed (first of course, because sex is always on a mans mind) panties… (he doesn’t care for thongs…he likes butt panties, as we call them…cute and sassy undies) he then said “does wearing nothing count?” again we punched him and took away his cookie…. he also listed… chucks, jeans, tanks, dresses, skirts (must add, he really wants that girl in a mini denim skirt…???) mmm.. ok, The next line is disgustingly sweet, our hubs said “you’re stunning, no matter what you wear“… at that moment we laughed…. now, as we blog…we cry….we want him to have that girl again….
Pull it together dammit…. Dani this is your spotlight dance…. the floor is yours….. and the sun’s a shinin…
I’m the girl he loves… although many times I haven’t the self-confidence I should. I’m a fun, happy, carefree …flip flop wearing, hair pulled up in sloppy bun kind of girl during the day… at work, I’m dressed the part (although the hubby said when he met me, I was a little too conservative. Probably the result of mom Dynamic having wardrobe me that day…). At night… I’m HIS whore…Lola a.k.a. Dani Dominatrix / Submissive Sabrina…. other times… I’m Dani… his wife, mother of two, friend to many, a sister, an aunt, optimistic Olivia… I love to cook, I like sports…Philadelphia teams mainly GO PHILS! I drink beer…do shots…talk about disgusting things… but… I clean up nice… and carry myself well in social situations… people like me, and I tolerate most of them…hehehe!!! I’m athletic, I run, lift weights, do yoga….
I love to dance…
with friends, for hubs (winky,wink), with my Sweet and Great…. by myself…. wherever there’s music playing, I’m like a moth to a flame…I love life…. I love living….I love basking in the sunshine of happiness….
Which brings us back to the beginning… we love this song… because it makes Dani happy….this girl smiles when she’s happy….so without further adieu ….
danigirlgarris 